I did a scary thing, a bold thing. But this piece is not about taking the plunge, it’s not about gathering the guts to leave your comfort zone, it is about what you experience and feel immediately after leaving your comfort zone.
I still experience bouts of fear, I still feel jittery and daunted.
This is for my fellow cliff jumpers, are you afraid too, even after the jump? Is it a bit like jumping off a cliff into the ocean and being submerged under the waves? You know that you will come up and swim, eventually, but for now the force of your jump has you under the rolling waves.
Well this is me, this is me saying that I am still scared, and if you are too, blink twice. We are learning together, are we not?
I am still daunted, still trembling in hope and fear, still learning, still honest. I still remind myself to have a deep belief in my own somebodiness, like Dr.King said. It would be dishonest to chronicle only the glory of the mountain top moments. Let us tell the truth about the moments when the view from the mountain top is terrifying and daunting. Let’s talk about the moments after we jump off our cliffs, the days after. Let’s question what victory is and how it plays out in a person’s life. Let me write.
“Number one in your life’s blueprint must be a deep belief in your own dignity, your own worth and your own somebodiness. Don’t allow anybody to make you feel that you are nobody. Always feel that you count, always feel that you have worth and always feel that your life has ultimate significance – Dr.King.”
Transitions are tricky and messy, but beautiful all the same. There is beauty even in the messy things. If you ever wondered how it feels to be nineteen and female and president of a major university student body, this is it.
We are doing
scary brave, creative and necessary things.